"To create abstract expressionist art, one must have
time to pity oneself. "

Robert Rauschenberg

Straddlin' the fence

It seems to me that every beginning is as difficult as every ending. I spend enormous amounts of time debating what to do followed by how to do it and then where to start. When I think the conclusion is near, it's just the same: What to do followed by how to do it and where to end it all.

Is this backwards?

Too short.
Too long.

What's exciting is the in between. Layers of layers of in between discombobulated and yet in their rightful place.

Speaking of rightful place, I think I was born into the wrong country, but I guess I should leave this for another topic of discussion at another time in space.

In the beginning...

...there was chaos...

...followed by a therapeutic session of gardening.

Alizarin Crimson

Oh my, oh my, where have I been?

Here, right here and not an inch further. So here it is, an update of a never ending battle with the self aspiring to be a painter. A continous blasphemy upon my existence to accomplish a mission of which its devastating urges can be tormenting.

Maybe during this long absence, I was essentially buying time for now.

Where did the hunger for turpentine go? After many years, I believe it to be resurfacing.
Excitment
Desire
One can only love few things in this world with such intensity and fervor.

On I ramble...

I've lost my source, a very valuable source for the first painting already. But someone else would say it must've not been so valuable if you couldn't keep up with it. And I could respond with, oh he's right---WRONG!

I lost it all. Now I must begin a desperate search to find it again and there's only 1 damnit.

I can't remember how to start or where to begin?

I must travel back and attempt to remember what my original intentions were with this blog. Possibly feedback. But I never even shared and I didn't make it far enough.

I'll start with alizarin crimson.

Nude with Comb

Rauschenberg...RIP

One of the greatest prolific artists passed away on Monday and I just now realized it, way to go with the daily task of keeping up-to-date with the news! Are you proud of yourself? Anyways, it's not about me, it's about Robert Rauschenberg.

This is all ancient history.

Self Portrait

Detail of Self Portrait

Al Capone

Dialation
(she's lost)

Lady Eating

Lamp

La Familia

Eunice

Detail of Eunice

Blue Nude